I've always struggled with someone saying I "deserve" certain things. What led them to that conclusion? How do they know behind the scenes what I do? What makes me more or less deserving than someone else? As a single mom I've learned that just being a single mom means you deserve quite a lot. Not that I disagree with that, not necessarily for myself per say, it is a tough job, but does it make me deserving?
And strong. I was feeling particularly strong recently. I was going to demand the respect I deserved. Yeah, that blew up in my face. I even looked up the meaning of strength in the dictionary, it means: the quality or state of being physically strong; the ability to resist being moved or broken by a force;
the quality that allows someone to deal with problems in a determined and effective way. As I read that I think, yes I want to be that. But maybe I've got it wrong. It doesn't seem to be working out for me the way I think it should.
